Great. I`ve never felt so confused. I`ll be graduating from high school tomorrow and I still do not know what I want in life. I have not yet even decided on where I`ll take up my college. My course? I don`t know if that`s what I really want. I don`t wanna take up SPED and then would wish that I took up Advertising. I also don`t want to take up Advertising and in the end, hoped that I was in a preschool spending time with kids. I don`t know - I really don`t. I admit that I`m not great in a certain field or something in particular. Yeah, I love to dance, to take pictures, to write, to do photo manipulations, to make friends. But I`m not really good at any of those. I think it`s just plain passion. It`s just being average. Mediocre.

I hate it when people would ask me about my course. It makes me feel so ashamed. I don`t wanna tell them what`s on my mind cause I might just dissappoint them with an I-don`t-really-know answer. Then they`d tell me to imagine myself 5 years from now. Where do I see myself? Honestly, I don`t know. And this saddens me a lot.

I`m not really good when it comes to decision-making. I always need someone`s help or else, I`d regret things forever. I`m afraid to make one big mistake which can destroy me big time. I`m afraid of dissappointing people. It`s not that I always want to please them. I`m just scared of what they`ll think of me. Ugh. Forgive me for ranting about this but I`m talking about future here. My future. My life depends on this decision. Gawd. Please enlighten me.

And another great thing is that I`m home alone. Boo, I badly need someone to talk to.
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